I did it!

I made my decision and I already feel so much lighter for it. I think it was basically me choosing between which side effects I should possibly suffer that was getting me down. I mean, who wants to decide between what shitty feeling you want to have?

Now I've made the choice I'm definitely hoping for a better night's sleep tonight. I'm just waiting for a phone call next week to declare my bloods as fine and then I can start my first oral chemotherapy of Capecitabine. (If anyone knows of a decent sized box to store all my meds, please send me a message 😂).

The plan is to take two tablets a day for 2 weeks and then have a week off with scans every 3 months or so. There's no end date at the moment but there's always possibilities for breaks in treatment again to give my body a rest.

I'm hoping that having made the choice to have my treatment solely at home that it won't take me away from the children but just like the last time I have to take it all day by day. The most common side effects are sore and peeling skin on the hands and feet as well as diarrhoea, but because this is so new I'm being started off on a lower dose so I'm hoping I won't be hit too hard by any of it.

I just have to remind myself that this is all obviously for the best and it is a positive that I'm declared well enough to undergo more treatment. ♥️